My life is truely blessed, I wouldn’t change my past for anything. I can actually work on myself because my life is no longer chaotic. I am no where near perfect or where I need to be, but I am getting there and I am exactly where I need to be today.
Shelby Rose ♥
The words I love you keep popping up in my head. It’s ridiculous… it’s impossible. It has only been a couple months. Maybe it’s just me needing some kind of validation, yes, that’s what it is…
But he’s everything I could ever dream of. He truely treats me like a princess. Maybe its because we are still in the honeymoon stage…
Or maybe I’m justify and rationalizing in my head how impossible it is, because it really is possible that I am completely falling for you.
I really am so blessed.
8 months clean tomorrow.
I go through these cycles of eating normal, binging and purging and restricting. One always seems to lead to another. Ill eat normal, start gaining weight which leads to restricting. I can only restrict for so long before I want pizza, and than I am off the races binging and purging, and that is the hardest thing to get under control.
Than you throw the substance abuse problem in there and I am just one fucked up mess..
I hope there isnt a needle at the end of all of this
My Current Cycle: Restricting. Lets see how long I can do this & how much weight I can lose
Shelby get the fuck outta your head.
It’s a horrible place to be sweethearttt.