August 2012
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July 2012
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Ugh
My head is so fucked up right now its ridiculous. Fuck this disease. It’s disgusting
So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to...
– The Notebook kills me. (via mariahxbrianne)
June 2012
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May 2012
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8 Months Clean Today
I really never thought I would see the day that I would have this much clean time. I didn’t even want to stay clean when I went into treatment, I had every intention of going home after treatment and getting high again. I just wanted the physical pain to stop for a little while. I am so happy that the God of my understanding had different plans for me. My life is so different today and I have put...
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It Can't Be..
The words I love you keep popping up in my head. It’s ridiculous… it’s impossible. It has only been a couple months. Maybe it’s just me needing some kind of validation, yes, that’s what it is…
But he’s everything I could ever dream of. He truely treats me like a princess. Maybe its because we are still in the honeymoon stage…
Or maybe I’m justify and rationalizing in my head how impossible it...
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My ED Cycle
I go through these cycles of eating normal, binging and purging and restricting. One always seems to lead to another. Ill eat normal, start gaining weight which leads to restricting. I can only restrict for so long before I want pizza, and than I am off the races binging and purging, and that is the hardest thing to get under control.
Than you throw the substance abuse problem in there and I am...
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You Have Officially Lost It
Dear Ex Boyfriend,
You
Are
Fucking
Nuts.
I personally think you need to get caught being a shadbawllll , but that’s just my opinion.
Karma
Is
A
Bitch.
And stop saying “I love you” Fyi, you do not.
Love Yours Truely,
Shelby Rose
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This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you’re going to mess up...
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No More Excuses, I Just Loved Getting High
I would love to keep using my dad as an excuse as to why I got high. He didn’t force me to get high, I wanted to get high, I loved getting high,I loved the chaos, I love the unmanageablity, and I loved running from everything. Yes, the things he did to me fucking sucked. The things the neighbors down street did to me when I was 5 or 6 fucking sucked. The 16 year old boy that took advantage of me...